Welcome to my ‘About Me' and Blog Page. I've decided to create a blog on this page because I feel that the expression of who a person is can only be truly learnt from the individual perspective, as opposed to one simply trying to tell who they are from their own mind. A relation exists between the expression of our feelings and thoughts towards those of the one we express them towards; and so this way is far better for you to understand who I am. I will also be posting from time to time a self photo of myself, and perhaps of the places I go; for there is a lot happening these days, far beyond the expression that words can bring forth, it's going to be fun; and I hope you can enjoy it.
The past few days have been quite interesting to me; taking one part of my life and turning it to the next. A contracted work position I've been working for the past two months is coming to an end today; friends, networks, and good memories are the product of what I've accomplished. I find it so very interesting though that the bridging of networked lives has only taken place through the events which led to, and took place upon the work I've done. A series of seemingly random events took place over the past year which has taken me from a single home body, afraid of the world, living in my parents basement, working in a dead end job.. to a life of love, happiness, adventure, real life emotion and times, friendship, connections and ultimately to the exact place I'm at. The events took me over, they became my life; they have given me more enjoyment, awe and wonderment than I had ever thought possible.
A year ago I was alone, I was depressed, upset with my life; I was suppressing the cares of living with the idea that I was helping others to live. Today, I couldn't be more happily engaged to the most amazing woman I've ever known, a beautiful woman who gives as much as I do; one who wants to see me happier and more fulfilled in life than I ever thought possible, one who loves me for who I am.
Next year I will be married, I couldn't see anything more important than living this life, with my beautiful, amazing, wonderful wife. I am happy, I'm content, I have real and amazing friends, I feel lifted and real, like every day of my life has led me to this exact moment. The honesty in all of this is simply the fact that the events of my life have truly led me here, every single event; every one... how can love be anything but the most perfect of things we can do, when all of our lives lead up to it?
Love is real, hope is real, friendship is real, being positive and happy are real.
...Being who we are.. that's real.
Blog: October-28-09
I've been discovering a lot about myself these days; the needs to build who I am based off the world around me no longer seems to matter much. Instead I'm trying to take the days I have, and understand what life truly is about. I've found in my search that what matters to people varies in accordance to what they have, how they've grown up, sometimes even about who they believe they are. For as long as I can remember I've held to the belief that I am a person of standing, someone who can be found above a crowd, a leader, a winner. It has only been in the finding of love that I have found out however that to stand on equal footing to another is to truly stand out. As people in a world divided by almost as many things are there are people, it becomes difficult to single ourselves out. Many people of today find that rebellious behaviour, or 'acting out', will make them stand out; yet truthfully there are so many trying this, that to be 'normal' is far more rare and precious a thing.
Long have people discussed the idea that the destruction of the ego (or the persona, etc) will lead to happiness and peace in life. It is only in living this idea that we become who are, for although we have fancy things, try as hard as we can to do the 'right thing', we become clouded by the shroud of who we wish we were. Pressing in on this idea we find that we become who we wish to be, instead of actually living our lives being who we actually are. When we take the steps in the reverse direction to return to ourselves, to deconstruct who we've become; we find that all the difficulties of living suddenly seem so easy. We can take a day and live, we do no longer have to fight or pretend, there is no need to hide or lie, for we are living as we are. It is truly in denying ourselves the things which if we never had, we wouldn't know that we covet, when we begin to understand this reality. If a person never had money, they wouldn't take advantage of it; if a person never smoked, not even once, they would never have become an addict. And that is the beginning of constructing a true reality; to let go of the things others have which we do not, and to never become part of them, for the things we wish for are in essence, who we become. When we stop, we grow, and only in the letting go can we move forward; for only when we stop pushing our way through life, does fate take control and let us live.
Blog: July-08-09
Hello, I'm James Malyk; I live in Toronto and I have a lot to say. For a very long time I've been following a tradition called Paganism; which in the minds of most people today means I'm the type of person who wears robes, dances around fires ceremoniously, totes daggers, wands and a staff. Fortunately the word Pagan means ‘Nature', and a faith based around such an thought projects the idea that I follow a nature based religion. For most people again that means something other than I would say it can be defined as. As long as people have been around they have believed in something, a faith that the Sun would rise, that they would live, see things if their eyes work, hear if they can, and eventually that they would die. These are all natural ideas of the world, and if brought to unison bring forth an idea that if a person can believe in those simple things happening, and they are all naturally occurring, why not then tack on a name and brand it. People have been persecuted for this exact belief for many years; it is so because of the strength in it.
If the world were to unite and all beliefs were truly free to express, the world governments wouldn't even exist, let alone have any power. Imagine all the billions of dollars that people would save if their taxes were spent on positive advancement of life? From the ideas of saving money, curing disease to save lives, and generally saving the planet, the list is endless. Well, a sad fact is that money is made by chaos, disorder and through keeping the world disjoined. The nature of faith is brought through learning for the self, for what lessons can we truly learn from others? All of the religions of today were founded on belief in the ideas of taking one thing and building upon it, in the formation of some major idea or fundamental truth coming forth. When one persons ideas are conjured up in their mind, it comes from a source; not from who they are, but who they should be, for the only thing which ‘Can Be Thought Of' comes from a place which has not yet been. And so with this we yield a beginning of an understanding, and that is simply that we belong to our ideas, the ones not yet thought of for ourselves. The future is ours, we are the ones who build it by living our lives; this is a teaching of nature, for who comes beyond us but those who we create from all that we are?